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On Monday, I took a very big step into a new season of life; I moved into my own apartment! This is not the first time I have lived on my own, but this is still a very exciting accomplishment for me. Allow me to share some background information: for the past 2 years, I have had various health issues. 13 months ago, in the midst of all the health issues, I separated from my husband as well. I was unable to work due to my disabilities and moved back in with my parents. I lived with them for the past year (plus a month). I have spent the past year rebuilding my life from the ground up (by the grace of God). It has been the most difficult year of my life in many ways, and also the most amazing year of my life in other ways. I focused on getting my health under control, rediscovering my interests and passions, improving old relationships as well as starting new ones, and, ultimately, I got saved in September of last year.
I still struggle with my health, but I am in much more stable condition that I was a year ago. I have learned how to live my life in a way that accommodates my illnesses. Part of my disability is a short and long term memory issue (more about that in an upcoming post), so I have also spent the last year relearning how to do a lot of things that most people my age would probably consider pretty basic.
There was a point a few months ago when my parents and I discussed when I might possibly move out into my own place. At that particular time, I was starting to feel better and getting eager to enter that next season of my life. We learned of a house that was for rent, and we looked into it a bit. In order to rent the house before another potential renter, I would have had to make the decision within a few days. At this point, I did not have any income, so that would have been a major issue. I had been praying about my future living situation before this, but I began to focus on this issue more in my prayer time. I prayed that if this move was God's will, that He would give the go ahead. That He would make a way for it to happen. I could feel God telling me this was not the time or the place. I talked to my mom and she had also been praying and feeling the same way. I felt surprisingly peaceful about giving up that house.
Even though I gave up that particular house, I did not give up praying about my future living situation. I prayed that God would give me wisdom and discernment to know when the timing and the place were right. I was praying that He would give me and my parents unity so that we could all be on the same page with this decision. I prayed that if and when I needed to change anything in my life, He would show me how to follow His good, pleasing and perfect will and then give me the strength and courage to obey. God definitely gave me a sense of contentment with staying with my parents. I find it very amusing that I didn't get the house I wanted when I was eager to move out, but I got the apartment we found when I was thinking that my moving out was still a long way off! All in His timing, friends.
Although I had prayed a lot about my future living situation, my parents and I hadn't talked much about it until about a week before finding my apartment. We discussed that we may be able to look into finding a place again now that I had some income. We were thinking it still may be awhile down the road, but we weren't sure. On Saturday night, my mom decided to check out available apartments in our area on craigslist just to see what was available. She came across a studio apartment in a really nice location that was within my budget. She called me into the living room to look at it. It was late Saturday night, so we decided we would call the owners the next day. So, Sunday we called the owners and they told me they had rented the apartment I had seen online. I thought to myself "Ok, guess this isn't going to work out right now." But, the woman then said she had another studio available in the next building over. So, my parents and I went over Sunday afternoon to take a look. The place was small, but completely doable for one person. We all liked the apartment, the location, and the owners. My parents asked me if I wanted to really do this. I said yes. This was really happening!
Much to my surprise, the owners told me I could move in the next day if I wanted. I decided that if I was going to do this, I might as well jump in! The timing felt absolutely perfect. I knew God was giving me the go ahead on this one. Monday afternoon, I signed my lease and my parents helped me move in. I have now been here 3 days and I am very happy so far. It is evident to me in so many ways that this move was part of God's plan for me.
So, what does all this have to do with communication? We have to be communicating with God on a regular basis in order to understand His plan for our lives. Of course, we never see the whole picture, but He reveals pieces to us in His timing. If we're not taking time each day to listen for His voice, how will we know when He presents us with opportunities? His ways are so much higher than our ways; we need to make sure that, when we make decisions, they are the ones God wants us making. I spent countless hours praying about my living situation. I could have jumped into renting the first house even though it didn't feel right. I know that would have been a disaster. Because I was taking the time to communicate with God, I was able to make decisions that were part of His plan for me. My living situation is just one example of how important it is to listen for God's voice each and every day. Every time you are in a situation where you're not sure what decision you need to make, bring it before the Lord. It doesn't matter if it's a trivial decision or a life altering one; God wants you to stay in tune with His plan for your life! Take time each day to be in the Word, pray, and fellowship with Christian friends. God will speak to you and you will get better at discerning His voice as you build your relationship with Him. Yes, we will make mistakes. But, that's where grace comes in! We live in a fallen world and we cannot be perfect. But, we can trust our futures to a perfect God.